Only One Chopstick.

...is the development that meets the needs of the present without compromising the ability of future generations to meet their own needs."
- Brundtland Report.

Not going to China anymore.

Further details under friends-lock.

thought that I had everything sorted. Now I'm at a lost. I'm worried about everything falling through. What am I going to do? 

I'm reaching the running stretch to the end of 2nd year, and I find myself more cooped up in my room and watch the sunny days pass by.

Well...

Actually I'm lying. I find myself skipping lots of lectures and spending my days in the sun.

It's only been two weeks since Easter break and so much has happened. I'm not even sure what's going on, but I hate the negative juxtoposition of craving and dreading the summer holidays at the same time.

That probably doesn't even make grammatical sense. My brain has definitely fried.

What's new is that my film, "The Stage" did get into the Scottish student film festival - I unfortunately only got into the selective night (the better night is the awards night), yet I felt a sense of achievement. I could definitely have done better, but I was competing with a larger crowd who are more experienced and has better resources. I was thinking of dropping filmmaking completely after the end of this year, but it has instead opened up new options for me in the future.

Speaking of the future, my lecturer who hired me for the Research Assistant position in my psychology lab questioned whether I wanted to go into a PHD program. I was interested...but the efforts sounds dire and insane...I have to apparently start preparing ad looking into a focus on where I was my dissertation by the end of my 4th year to go to.

And he believes that preparation to that would be me giving an hours presentation to my lab class on the experiments I've been running for the Postgrads in my lab. HOW IN GOD'S NAME CAN YOU SPEAK FOR SO LONG? AHHHHHH. I feel that I may resort to throwing candy to people during my presentation and hope to distract them.

Speaking of blasphemy, I recently watched the student production of the Jerry Spring Opera since David was playing the pit orchestra. Ace production. Talented performers. Very hilarious. But woahoho. Some parts were definitely over the top. I was a bit uncomfortable with the song completely made up of the C word, and the calling Jesus a bit gay. And I'm not even Christian.

In a nearer future, it has been approved that I will be teaching English in China for a month and a half. It still hasn't hit me yet...but...woah.

I'll be going to London tomorrow for a friend's birthday party and to see my uncle and other family. It was an unexpected weekend break, but I don't think I'm welcoming it well enough with 4 deadlines looming behind me and finals in 3 weeks time. I'm definitely not ready for it this year and I definitely need to pass or not I'm going to be basket weaving for the next few year.

And I won't even know how to weave since I skipped yesterday's field trip. Oops.

Oh the lecture is over now. I better go.

It's a beautiful sunny day in St. Andrews during Easter break. At least from what I can see from the crack of my curtains in my room. It's been a while since I've updated my LJl - thinking that second year of University would be more orderly than I thought it would be; it has definitely proven otherwise.  Additionally, I decided to update because I'm procrastinating on getting up from bed (literally, I'm still in my covers).

What has been new with me?

1. I've decided to completely throw myself into work. Although I have to say, I haven't thrown myself enough because hoohoo...I am WAY behind in notes.

2. I started Filmmaking this year again and created a new short called, "The Stage," using my sister's script. After 4 months of hell and my mac crashing, it's been turned in to the filmfest here. It's a huge filmfest for the whole of Scotland so I'm not getting my hopes up...though I can't stop having dreams about it and it's driving me up the wall.

3. I'm currently a research assistant for the Memory Cognition Lab in the Psychology department. Ironically, it came by accident. I was desperate to find something to do this summer and asked my current lecturer (who happened to teach Neuroscience - mind that I have a massive fear with Neuroscience because I always thought it was too difficult for me). I somehow ended up in his sports car and he drove me to the Psych building where I picked up application forms for to be a research assistant during term time. I now do experiments (unpaid) and spend all my life in the Psychology building (there's no internet there too so I end up doing quite a bit of work). I'm not gonna lie, but it's pretty cool. I'm far too much of a Psych geek now.

4. I had to write a 10,000 word paper for Sustainable Development. I've pretty much stop going to lectures for that class...which is going to be a bite in the ass to catch up on notes. The best part is that my next assessment is to weave a basket. This class is shit. None of my assessments have nothing to do with my exam, but I spend a huge amount of time on them. Striving for 5 on the exam...but I'm not even sure if I can get a 5.

5. I'm not quite sure what I'm doing this summer. There's a vague possibility that I'm teaching English to High School students in China for a month (I wrote to whomever I applied to and she gave a vague reply of whether I got the spot or not). Unfortunately, that's only one month of the summer and my summer holidays are a behemoth (4 months). My parents want me to come home, but I don't know if I can take staying home for that long...it's not that I don't love home. I just feel so trapped when I'm back in Malaysia and I'm not going to lie, I have no friends back there.

6. Great news: My sister's getting married! She's getting married in the summer of 2010 so it's going to be well exciting. She's currently on bridezilla mode and everyone's bugging me on when's my turn (that's where I say: Fuck off.), but I'm so pleased for her. Eizwan makes a great addition to the family because he's so bulliable.

7. David has been able to tolerate me for a good 6-months now. Whoa-ho.

Right. I better get out of bed. I've spent my Easter break catching up on deadlines (which I'm actually not finished with), and touring around Glasgow. I got this Easter egg from David (which is about the size of my head...and I have big hair) and another from his mum...I'm going to be so ill from chocolate...which is brilliant. I need to tidy my room for cheecheechee is visiting me in St. Andrews today :D! I haven't actually seen her in a good...7 years. Wow.

Time to get up and tidy. Now.

I'm sitting by gossipy environmentalists. Oh. Dear.

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My last exam in about...2 and a half hours. And the light in my room just blew. And I didn't sleep all night.

Constanza 1997: The value of earth is approximately 33 trillion dollars.
Bushares 2004: The link between bushmeat hunting and fishing.
Guilland 2003: The link between bushmeat hunting and local livestock.
Odum 1962: The three elements of function of an ecosystem: 1. The rate of energy 2. The rate of nutrient cycling 3. The effect of organisms and its environment and vice versa.
Odum 1962: The three main structures of an ecosystem: 1. The biodiversity 2. The abiotic environment 3. The range of physical conditions

And it's still not enough.

Wish me luck for these 3 hours.

Proper update until after exams :(. But holidays were luverly - in the mean time, I procrastinate!

P.S. Does anyone know where I can get the Republic Tigers album in the UK? Amazon sells it for 16 pounds - extortionate! 

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Mini updates!
- I've started filmmaking again :). It's a film using my sister's script. First round of auditions went well and waiting for second round of auditions. Hopefully, this will be a success.
- I've gotten a job at the nearby take-out store. I'm going to now smell like Kebabs. Sexy.
- Christmas holidays are planned! Sadly am not going to be going back to Malaysia, but if anyone's around the U to the K, give me a ring :).
- Charity concert next Thursday from 7:30 pm - 9:30 pm. I'll be playing for Big band and Sax Ensemble (solo in the latter!) Please come watch!
- It snowed lots recently! And I've built my first snowman! It was exciting. But no more snow now.

Now I have to go into town. Hope that everyone had a special Thanksgiving! I ate vegetarian Kievs.

Love.

( Memeness. )

When you really like someone, you tend to do really irrational things. I'm watching Death Cab for Cutie tomorrow in Edinburgh *yay*. I'm also watching South Africa vs. Scotland rugby match on Saturday *yay* in Edinburgh. Of course the best plan is to just stay the night, no? No, I've decided that I'm going to go back and forth between St. Andrews and Edinburgh because I'm a plonker. This was actually a more rational idea than the one I had before which was to go back with David to Glasgow and then go back to Edinburgh on Saturday.

You guys should come visit me so I can show you how irrational this is.

How has everyone been?

For the first time in ages, I have faith in America.

Hello my lovelies!

I just realised that a proper update is well overdue since my last updates have been either a) rather cryptic b) immensely depressing c) all of the above. Additionally, I have a 2500-word essay due thursday and I haven't written a thing so I've taken this opportunity to procrastinate.

Summary:
- I've moved in! It's nice.
- I'm poor!
- Second year is well hard.
- I think I've got Christmas plans and after exam plans!

Hope you had a great halloween!
( Very long-update. If you bother. )

P.S. I'm trying to cut down on my cursing. I think I'm doing alright so far (I've only started today).
P.P.S. Someone's recently called me and apparently I sound so strange with a mingle of accents. Anyone interested for an accent update? I may put a video up and embarrass myself like last time or just skype with me :).
P.P.P.S. What the f- What is that about with David Tennant stopping Doctor Who? Nay chuffed :(. He's had me heartbroken for a week now.
P.P.P.P.S. Am shitting fucking dead worried about US elections. Staying up all night with IR society to watch elections on 3 different news channels. Am I a geek or what?

It's my last day in Malaysia and I'm absolutely SPAZZING.

I've been on holiday far too long that I DO NOT REMEMBER ANYTHING. SERIOUSLY. HOW DO I COOK? HOW I CLEAN? HOW DO I SHOP FOR GROCERIES? HOW DO I BREATHE? OMGWTFBBQ.

AND IT'S 13 DEGREES THERE. I CAUGHT A COLD LAST NIGHT FROM 20 DEGREE AC!

ACK.

I'll shut up now.

Second year just seems so much scarier. I hope I do better.

P.S. I'm living outside of dorms now (another reason to be freaked out about haha) so I have a different address. Anyone interested in postage?
P.P.S. I also won't be having internet for a long whiles since we'll have to set it up ourselves. Sadness.

1. Leave me a comment saying anything random, like your favourite lyric to your current favorite song. Or your favorite kind of sandwich. Something random. Whatever you like.

2. I respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.

3. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.

4. You will include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in the post.

5. When others comment asking to be asked, you will ask them five questions.

Hey hot stuff, how high does the legs on your table go? ;) ;)
 

At times like this, I really wished that I worked in Johor instead. I've forgotten how much I loved it. And how Singapore and old friends are right around the corner.

But no worries - the people I work with are gems. I miss them already.

So I watched Wanted:



Dark Knight tomorrow. Hopefully that will be better.

I always think that I've changed, but I've forgotten that other people do too. I don't know why, but I feel sick.

I've just arrived in Malaysia and being rather sleepy and jetlagged, I believe that it's a bright idea to clean out my room and donate most of my things to charity! I will probably regret this later. And I'm having massive allergic reactions to the haze and the dust. And the cats are grumpy. And I lost my macbook charger. And I have also come to the conclusion that I used to dress like a skanky ho back in the day.

Sleepy now.